The OC

ohh yeah @ 4:07 p.m. on December 18, 2004

my computer is seriously fucked. i thought it was fixed, but nope. it does have a curse, i am convinced.

tonight we are going to joker wooo..... im not really in the party mood right now.

soooo what a vacation this has been... it hasnt been that bad. ive always had something to do pretty much.i havent really stopped. tomorrow i am helping erica move. and tuesday i have an oil change at 1 pm. and thats it for my plans really. other then that i dont have much to do. so just today, tomorrow, and tuesday.

just talked to cindy from portugal, they got there ok....

you know i was thinking last night, i have been pretty up and down the last week or so. but as much as i have been expecting the worst i guess u could say, i have never given up. no matter what odds i faced. i think that that is pretty impressive. how many people would?

how many people would face humility, and put aside any pride they have, ignore the odds and do it anyways? If they werent even sure of theoutcome. and its just that, i am not sure. this is only something that could *potentially* be, nothing is guaranteed. this isnt even something that is for sure. but i don it anyways. i may have a few regrets in my life, which everyone has, and the biggest one is being with the best friend.... but i will NOT let myself regret something that i can control. i will NOT let myself regret never making an attempt. i will NOT let myself regret not saying how sorry i am for that, or how much i want this. this is something that i want more then air- i will not sit back and let the slightest oppertunity pass me by. it might never happen. i know that, i am very afraid of that. but i dont want to never know.

*sigh*. im bored. all this talk about having so much to do! lol. well i have stuff to do tonight.

i really have nothing to say. im just repeating myself again. thats gotta be boring to read as well! ha! now YOUR bored! lol. ok im done

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