The OC

- @ 4:00 p.m. on May 01, 2005

I'm home again for the weekend. I leave again on Tuesday. Lora asked me to help at Trafalgar PC, in London, so I said sure. So this week I'm back in London, doing Trafalgar, and Adelaide as well. Both are in London. But I'm not too sure where. I will have to look at that later.

I have decided I must move out. And soon! But I can't afford to move out AND have a car loan right now. Especially not by myself. So I will have to seriously start looking at something else. I just can't take this crap from my parents anymore. And it's stupid shit too! They overreact SOOO much! And I'M a drama queen?! HA!

IT's just starting to get to me. I come home, after being away most of the week, and I barily get a hello. I more or less get barked at what needs to be done. Or yelled at for something. Something is always wrong, nothing is ever right! I've always done something wrong apparently. And this seems to be a theme. It's really annoying me. Am I ever right?! Fuck. I know I am, and I know there are things that a lot of people seem to think they are right with, but they're not.

I hate to say it, but I'm not as dumb as I may look. So, with that said, I'm actually smarter than u think. YesI might let you think your right. But just keep in mind, your not always. Sorry. But it's true. Just don't feel like starting an argument all the time so yeah!

I hope this next hotel is a little bit better. I hope I can still get TBS as well. When your bored, TBS is a good time killer. Or boredom kller lol.

I don't think I'll be going to the casino this time. I actually won money, like $30 or something and I lost it all. It's funny, cause the first machine I played I won, and I didn't want to leave right then, cause I would feel so stupid! But I guess I should have!

Other then that..... hmm.... our renovations at my actual work are almost done. wooopie. like i care. I just need to get out of the retail business. Lora was telling me not to quit, that there is more than just being a csm.... but I don't really feel like I am wanted there..... seeing as its MAY and my boss STILL wont talk to me about a raise. Like, if the answers no, then just actually say so. Don't keep putting it off. That just prolongs it. Its kinda funny though. I know what all the other csms make, and they allllllll make more than me. Fuck, our MILK GUY and a FULL TIME GROCERY CLERK make more than me. Which is funny, cause legally i believe my ass is on the line if something happens cause im a manager, not them. But ok... And really, the Cash office is sort of like the centre of the store. But thats ok too. So clearly, I am not wanted there.

I think I will be calling the psychic again. She was so good! So we will see what else she has to say.

I also need to make another appointment for my hair. I'm not sure when I will make that for.

I think I might wait, until I hear from Lora/Jan/Cheryl what my schedule will be in the next few weeks. I know Cheryls stores need to go, and a few of Jans and a few of Loras. So that tells me nothing. Except most of the west end is done. And most of Toronto is done. So that leaves up north, and the East end. We'll see I guess.... Hopefully I get a break from the hotels soon. I'm getting really sick of not sleeping.

Alright, well I'm doing fuck all right now and bored... so I'm gonna watch tv or something I dont know. Later.

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